It's been 27 years since my husband and I feel in love.IT was love at first sight, unfortunately for him, he was a bit to drunk to notice. Now, I know what your about to ask...how can it be love at first sight when he was drunk off his ass and pretended to not even notice you? Simple, the fact that he was practically sitting in my lap for most of the time and then laying his head on my lap when he was passing out. I remember looking down at him and feeling this strong urge to run my finger's through his hair. I felt a familiarity so strong, as if I had known him and was with him my entire life. And for the record, I WAS sober. I wanted to see him again, hopefully sober, just to be sure, because the energy between us just...swirled. About a month later I would see him again when his brother picked me up to help him move.Oh, did I forget to mention that? Yeah, I was dating his brother at the time and he took me to see his brother's band play at some hole-in-the-wall dive in San Diego the night we met. If you think that's bad, you should hear about my wedding day!! I'll reserve THAT for another time. It's not really as messed up as it sounds, as we spent the next 9 years doing the "right" thing for a man not worth doing it for. And let me tell you, that was a challenge! I guess I'll share a little "sneak peak". Picture it..Cicily 2019..Sorry, I was channeling Sophia for a moment..Picture it...beautiful day in a cabin in the woods...You have your husband and the edge of the couch your sitting on and the man your in love with laying on the couch across from you watching...Legends of the Fall. IF you've seen the movie, yeah, the part where Brad Pitt waltzes back in after she married the older brother? Talk about wanting to a bullet in your head. We weren't even supposed to be watching that movie. See, I was having a conversation with my love about Brad Pitt after he revealed his bromance, (which later really blew up in his face about a year later). I told him that he sucked as an actor and was soooo boring. And then it was on! He went down the movie rental place to rent Kalifornia, but they didn't have it so he picked up Legends of the Fall. (coincidence? I think NOT!) It was the most awkward situation to ver be in. It probably would have been more awkward had my husband brought his mistress over as well, but then again, it probably would have turned out better if he did. Then we could ALL let the cats out of the bag and be done with it. 

    I plan to write a book another book about our journey..in detail..but now back to this book. After 11 years and 3 kids later, we were met with many other challenges from homelessness, to emotional walls, and finally to my husband's disability. You're probably thinking, why haven't you just called it quits?? Why? Because we are to much in love and that type of love doesn't allow you to just walk away. He originally hurt his back in 2010 and it turned our world upside down. From surgeries, finding the right combinations of medications and a whole lot of soul searching on his part. It was probably one or the toughest and longest situations we had to endure. We literally had to relearn how to do everything, from going out to eat, how we shopped, how we slept, even how we made love. But, we did see each other naked EVERY day, so that's a bonus! We managed that one because he was afraid he would slip in the shower. This pleasant change was something we really never did before, and a tradition we still carry on today! Even with permanent nerve damage, he did manage to go back to work for a short time until he blew the lower disc. At that point, we realized that this injury will be a lifelong disability, luckily, the transition, though still extremely challenging, is a much easier transition. However, this journey has taken a serious toll on our relationship and we lost alot of our connection because of it. 

      With all the challenges and him coming into a ready-made family with younger children, we just continued the foundation we had already built before we officially got together. We've spend many years mourning the missed opportunities to do all the things we wanted when we were younger and wishing we could recapture at least some of that. But now we're both pushing our 50's, with his messed up back and my messed up arm, man', physically, we're just falling apart!! We never had the opportunity to actually "date" each other, and now that the rugrats are grown and we were fortunate to inherit a travel trailer (something we always dreamt about even before getting together...yep, another story) me and my insane brain came up with the perfect plan to help us reconnect our love and make even better memories then before!! So, yours truly came up with a plan..We are going to stay in the trailer for one week a month and use this time to really focus on dating each other...And then I also decided to write about this journey...An old Crow and an old bat with disjointed body parts...This outta be interesting....I just have to keep telling myself that we will laugh about this one day...

        Actually, I'm quite excited about this opportunity and am interested in seeing where it goes, especially since our lives never remain consistent. We can't even plan a date night without some major disaster so trying to plan a few days muchless a week...all we can do is cross our fingers and hope for the best!